To All My Friends without Children

I read a very telling blog/post the other day and I say telling because I too have wanted to always take the time to do just as Jason Good did in his “Day 166” blog post to all his friends without children. I feel there are two different types of people out in the world – those who have children and those who don’t. Neither is better than the other – Trust me. I love my children, love my family and love what we have created.

I som20140311-163334.jpgetimes wonder what life would be like at age 33 with no kids, but then I think about my boys, what I would be missing out on each and every day. They are my world….I live through them and love every moment of it. They show me how to enjoy just the small, tiny little things in life that we adults, 33 year olds, sometimes take for granted.

Don’t get me wrong, mommy likes her time to herself at times (when I get them, which tend to be very few with young ones, school meeting, work, etc) but I love my life and where I am today. Once you have a family of your own and a baby/child that loves you unconditionally you’ll know what I mean! There is a reason I am where I am and God has a plan for us all. So friends with and without kid – here is my letter to you through Jason’s words to understand I do still love you, I miss you and gosh darn it – I am here for you – tired and exhausted at times but still alive and ME.20140311-163342.jpg

Day 166: To all my friends without children.

I know our friendship has changed since I had a family. I never answer the phone; I don’t return texts as quickly; I almost never “hang out” anymore. That’s because my priorities have changed. I would have warned you, but I didn’t know it was going to be so severe. I still love you as much as I always have, but I’m really tired at night. I really want to see you, but can you please come to my place? I know it’s far, but I needed a house and yard or I was going to lose my mind. It might be hard to have a conversation because my kids will be angry that I’m not giving then all my attention. I wish I could just tell them to be quiet and go play, but that’s not really how it works.

I hang out more now with families who have kids the same age as mine. That’s because when they’re playing, the adults have a little time to talk. If there are no other kids around, I’m responsible for all the entertainment and it’s exhausting. People with kids understand that I might have to leave in the middle of their sentence to get a juice box. They understand because they did the same thing to me five minutes ago. It’s not that I like them more than you, it’s because they understand the situation and that makes everything easy. I need things to be easy a lot these days, especially when it comes to “entertaining.”

I know you want us to just get a babysitter and drive out to your place and drink wine until 1am. I want to do that too, but I can’t. Not for a few more years. My kids are too young and they still wake up at night for various reasons. I want to be there when that happens as much as possible. So for now, you kind of have to come to my house. Understand that when you do, most of the afternoon will be about the kids and not about us. I’ll have to put the hotdogs on the grill before the steaks because if I don’t, someone will freak out and throw themselves on the ground. You’ll also probably have to spend some time by yourself while I take one of my sons inside to talk to them, read them a book, or put on a TV show. To me, it’s all worth it for that 15 to 20 minutes I get to spend with you totally uninterrupted.

I remember when we used to spend hours talking, drinking and playing pool. We’ll do that again; just hang in there with me during these few years when I need to focus on raising my kids to be interesting and happy. I’m terrified I’m gonna screw it up. My life is like finals week in college, and I spent all semester smoking weed and listening to ZZ Top. I used to be a child-free person who had friends with kids. It’s weird, I get it. It’s also really fun to play with someone else’s kids, and almost all of you do that really well. I encourage you to do it more, even if it feels awkward sometimes. They might diss you, but don’t take it personally; humans aren’t born with manners. Have them run little errands for you. It’s great that they can go in the fridge and get you a beer. They like doing it, and it will make them think you’re cool. Trust me, there’s no better feeling.

I miss you all and want to see you just as much as I ever did. I also understand that I’m a bit of a pain in the ass to hang out with. I take full responsibility for that. I yawn a lot and don’t remember stuff. Let’s just acknowledge that I am a distracted Alzheimer’s patient and try to see each other more anyway.

-Jason Good

Doubtful?

I had the pleasure in receiving a very special message today from a dear friend of mine. As I took the time to watch this short yet meaningful video I wonder how many other parents, not just moms but dads too are doubtful that they are the best parent they can be for their children.

As I watched this video it brought tears to my eyes. I was able to connect with these mothers comments of “needing patience,…”. I however hope deep down inside that I truly have and can continue to be that parent to them that they feel is their “hero”.

I ask every parent to take just a second and watch. Enjoy! Realize you do make a difference. You do mean something. You are loved….

upworthy.com – priceless, kids say what they really feel about mom

school days…

This fall J started kindergarten. As exciting as it is, it also means my baby boy is growing up. This year J has the delight to be in a class with 20 other children at one of the catholic schools in Springfield. We choose this school, not just because the class sizes are small but also that they excel in their academics, we feel the students there get a better hands-on approach to learning, and help us put God’s word into his day every day. J is a very smart boy. He excels in areas of creativity and is very intrigued to know more each day. Certain topics such as dinosaurs, fossils, writing words/letter, etc are his special these days!

My husband, family and I are entertained with the questions he has to ask us sometimes – mostly at times when our coffee has yet to kick in. Leaving you in a short state of shock to and hopeful that the answer that is about to come out of your mouth is in deed the answer you would want to say, after about a cup and a half. He asks questions on God, Jesus, death, marriage, how did the dinosaurs get here, why did they die, etc. All interesting questions a bright mind would think. He is always thinking, which when he is older and in high school might make it very interesting for us!

medium_6282476027I know J is not always the most perfect child; no child is. They all have their times when they just aren’t feeling right, something upsets them, they don’t agree, their tired etc. I will say though, in our house we try to do what we can to be open to others, to their thinking and upbringing. We try to stay open minded. My husband and I come from two different family dynamics…..which has been great. It has helped us to see the world as we live in with eyes open. We try to embrace the Peace Builder pledge that his school uses at home as he and his classmate do at school.

The other morning J asked me why one of his school mates would tell him he would be the only one not invited to be at his sleepover. Puzzled I first didn’t respond. I’m not quite sure I would probably allow him in the first place to go to a sleep over only being in kindergarten and all, but then I responded – “Are you sure that is what he said?”. J didn’t say much more after that. He went back to eating his breakfast. It got me thinking…..Is there something going on at school I should know about? Why would this little boy say such a thing. Did they disagree at school sometime? Are they just not nice to each other? This isn’t the first time something like this has happened. What is amazing is even in pre-school I saw things like this happening and not only to J. It starts so young.

I want to be sure that J knows that it was ok that he and his friends sometimes don’t agree or get along. There might be times where he might not be included in something and he shouldn’t be upset. Sometimes these things happen. Its part of growing up. I know young children often react before really understanding what might have happened and I truly think and hope that what had happened at school was truly a misunderstanding. What makes it hard for me as J’s mom is knowing that deep down he does care about all of his friends and really would like to be included as much as possible. Friends will come and friends will go but hopefully he will be strong in his faith and those that God wants to be in his life will stick with him as they grow older together.